Coop Girls Jane & Lori

What a difference a week makes!  Last weekend was in the negatives and this weekend is beautiful.  We woke up to a light snow cover Saturday morning but it was melted by early afternoon.  The Coop Girls weren't even upset despite the snow.  The temps were in the upper 40's/low 50's and sunny so they absolutely loved their time outside.

We bought another ton of pellets this weekend.  Since we use the pellet stove as our main heat source we'll likely go through this ton plus another half a ton before the stove is turned off for the season.  Our barn is not huge and loaded with equipment, leaving a moderate-sized space for pellet storage so we typically only store 2 tons at a time.

Red Clay & Peppermint Soap

Chocolate Covered Macadamia Nuts

Homemade Vanilla Extract
It was another busy Saturday.  After running errands Saturday morning it was time to get some things done.  Soap needed to be wrapped, lip balm and face serum needed to be made, and products needed to be packed for today's market.  I am almost out of vanilla extract so I got some more extract made as well {more on that this week}.  The Sunday prep list for next week's meal plan was a bit daunting since I only have a few hours on Sunday to get it done so I started that on Saturday.  And I surprised J with his favorite Chocolate-Covered Macadamia nuts - a memory for him of our time in Hawaii.  I use Trader Joe's chocolate for this and other homemade candies.

Today, of course, was mostly prepping for the Farmer's Market and then selling at the market.  My husband took a much needed day off so I managed to handle it all myself.  What started out as a slow day turned out to be quite busy!  I think people were out and about because of the mild weather.

Tonight I'm making bread dough, soup and chinese dumpling filling for this week.  I was going to add homemade Pop Tarts to the to-do list but the reality is, that likely won't happen.  So, I'll add it next week.  They are a great way to use up jam and I'm going to try a brown sugar version as well.

And I'll be calling my grandmother.  She lives on the West Coast {where I was born and raised} and I live on the East Coast.  So weekly phone calls are how we keep in touch.  She is my father's mother, and she and my grandfather helped raise me.  If it wasn't for them, honestly, I have no idea who I would be.  She and I have always had a special connection.  It was an absolute honor the day she told me she had something for me and handed me the very first piece of jewelry my grandfather had ever given her.  It's a beautiful and simple mother of pearl heart on a gold chain with a little diamond in the center.  She told me that she wanted me to have it because she knew I would love and appreciate it.  And that I do.

My grandmother is struggling to deal with the death of my uncle who passed a year and a half ago.  He was the baby.  She lost my father, then her husband, and now her youngest.  She tells me each and every time we talk that she will never get over this.  I assure her each and every time that you can never ever "get over" a death and gently prod her to talk about her memories of him.  She reminisces but does so in a monotone voice that I don't recognize.  A woman who is the kindest most giving person I know and who used to be so full of life and show such gratitude can no longer even fake happiness. I'm learning how deeply grief can settle - how hard it is to let go and, conversely, how hard it is to hold on.  It certainly gives a different perspective on life.


"Alone again.... naturally!" said...

I understand your grandmother perfectly. After the loss of our son in 1993, it still is hard, especially on the anniversaries. Time does not heal all. It's lovely that you let her talk about them and probably much needed. Sincerely, Cathy

Staci at Life At Cobble Hill Farm said...

Thank you so much Cathy. I'm so sorry for the loss of your son. Your words ring very true. Hugs to you. :)

Anonymous said...

Your week sounded very nice! Beautiful pictures...and the soap looks neat! (We have red clay soil here in Delaware). Just keep talking to your grandmother....I'm sure even if she sounds sad you give her hope. Memories are wonderful, even if bittersweet. Life is so mysterious when we face death, but in heaven we will all see each other again. But it is hard. When I was young and my grandmother got sad with memories of my grandfather and missing him, we used to put on a polka record and dance with her until she started laughing! Grandchildren are very important! Andrea

daisy g said...

So glad that you still have your grandmother in your life. What a blessing. She will be in my prayers. The only comfort in losing someone is knowing that they are still right there with us. And that one day, you will be reunited.

I wonder what J did on his day off? Congrats on handling the market by yourself. I am finding, now that I am selling, that it would be much easier to have a helper. Glad that you are having better weather. That'll keep those shoppers coming!

Enjoy your week, friend. Keep your eye on the prize. ;0D

lizzybaxter said...

Everyone said what I was thinking, so no use in repeating. I love everyone (and all my critters) so deeply, that it makes it so hard to let them go. I also believe in heavenly reunions, and that makes it more bearable, but painful in the interim nonetheless.

How blessed your grandmother is to have you. Building each other up, and speaking love, is the finest thing you can do for another.

Staci at Life At Cobble Hill Farm said...

Andrea - I love the polka story! So sweet. Thank you!!!

Daisy - thank you. I'm so happy to hear you're selling your bags! I absolutely adore mine. :)

Carol - thank you so much!

Anonymous said...

Wanted to share some critters soaking up the sun with you. Nothing like a pig smile to make my day.